Take the plunge…

I somehow wandered over to The Diaper Diaries and found a very intriguing challenge. It’s based upon the following scripture:

So do not deprive each other of sexual relations. The only exception to this rule would be the agreement of both husband and wife to refrain from sexual intimacy for a limited time, so they can give themselves more completely to prayer. Afterward they should come together again so that Satan won’t be able to tempt them because of their lack of self-control.

(1 Cor. 7:5, NLT)

So far I have moved the TV out of our bedroom and into the loft. Next up is to de-clutter. That might take awhile, but I am determined! I will take pictures as soon as my camera battery charges.

It’s not to late to sign up and join in on the fun. Are you willing to accept the challenge?

Love

I am truly blessed to have the priviledge of spending the rest of my life with my best friend. I am so in love with my husband. We have our ups and downs as a married couple. Sometimes he makes me so angry I can’t see straight, thankfully those times are few and far between. Sometimes we just go day by day with nothing new or exciting to report. Sometimes I am filled with such a supreme feeling of love that it brings tears to my eyes. Today is one of those days. From stolen kisses to the simple act of making our family hamburgers for lunch, I am so in love with this man. He brought me home a surprise present and I’m pretty sure it is a candy bar. I’m so craving chocolate, and I’m pretty sure that’s what I’m going to get! He is a fantastic father. The fun he has with our children, the laughter. How he works with Brianna on homework and coaches her soccer team. He is Katie’s prince charming. The way he snuggles with Alex. The father and son bonding over football already, so adorable!

My previous entry was kind of depressing. I am confident in one thing though, my husband knows me through and through. Sometimes better than I know myself. I cherish him. I love him. I am beyond thankful to have him in my life.

If you read this, let me know how much you love your husband or significant other. I love reading stories of love. It’s romantic, and I always love reading a bit of romance 🙂

All about him!

ABOUT HIM]

His name? Brian

Where did you two first meet? Jen and Renee’s room. 1st floor Montour @ Bloomsburg University

When exactly did you two first meet? The first week of school, so Sept. 1999

What was your first impression of him? Didn’t really notice him. I had a huge crush on his friend and that day, I was mostly annoyed with Brian. He was in the way of my viewing pleasure of Josh, LOL!

When did you start liking him? Sometime during those first weeks of school

When did you two start going out? I couldn’t tell you the exact date. It was after I depledged Chi Theta Pi though.

What was your first kiss with him like? Nice. I was thrown back because he wasn’t the typical guy I dated. He was very laid back and not aggresive at all in the physical department LOL.

How much older/younger is he compared to you? I am 2 months older than him

hair color? brown

eye color? Hazel/Green

build? 5’9″ or 10″. I don’t know. I’m not good at these questions LOL.

heritage? Irish/Italien

religion? non denom christian

glasses? nope, though sometimes I think he needs them!

piercings? had 2 holes and a cartiledge peircing but has taken them out.

tattoos? nope

birthmarks? nope

smart? yes 🙂

sarcastic? can be very sarcastic

humourous? he tries LOL

possessive? no

patient? for the most part

affectionate? yes

protective? yes, when he needs to be

clingy? No

talkative? sometimes

outgoing? sometimes

party animal/stay at home kind? Stay at home guy

sporty?  He loves sports especially baseball. he played semi-professional!

artistic? if it comes to newspaper layouts and putting together, dvds, picture collages or powerpoint shows. then yes!

practical? yes

[HIS SKILLS]

can he cook? yes

can he repair things? sometimes

can he dance? LOL, he has absolutely no rhythm

can he sing? no

can he draw? funny stick figures

can he play an instrument? some guitar

can he write well? yes, very neat and legible

can he make you laugh? yes

what is his talent? his dvd making skills

is he good at science and math? not really

[THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT HIM]

what part of his face do you like the most? his smile

what part of his body do you like the most? his butt

what part of his personality do you like the most? his sense of humor

what do you admire about him? his dedication to his job and ability to accomplish things

what part of him attracts you the most? All of him

do you know what attracts him to you? he loves how i care for our family and my long legs and of course if i show cleavage  😉

[RANDOM QUIRKS]

is he an animal lover? yes, though he says no more pets LOL

is he environmental friendly? i guess

what are his views on political issues? for the most part we feel the same way.. though we stay away from the topic because it can cause some pretty heated arguements..

is he racist? nope

is he a vegetarian? nope

does he drink? not really

does he smoke? Never

does he curse? hm, not really

does he abuse drugs? No

is he hairy? Yes

does he donate to beggars? Yes

is he neat or messy? Both

[HIS LOVE LIFE]

is he a romantic? yes

is he sentimental? yes

does he give you flowers? not really, because he knows that as much as i like them, they don’t last LOL

does he lavish you with gifts? sometimes

does he pay for your dates? All the time

does he express his love for you in words or actions? Both

[THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT HIM]

any habits of his that you dislike? he bites his nails and it drives me nuts

any part of his appearance that you dislike? not really

any part of his character that you dislike? sometimes he can be a little too sarcastic, but not as much as he used to

[YOUR FEELINGS FOR HIM]

how long have you two been together? about 6 years…

do you truly love him? with all of my heart

does he truly love you? with all of his heart

can you envision marrying him? of course, i did. and next year, we’re renewing our vows!

Struggles..

Brian and I’s intimacy has been on the backburner. Ever since I was pregnant with Katie, things have been bad physically between us. It started when he confessed to having an addiction with internet porn. I was devistated. I don’t think I have ever cried so hard in my life. I felt so degraded and it didn’t help that I was hugely pregnant either. It rocked Brian’s world to see how much he had hurt me. He hasn’t done it since, but the damage has been done. My self-image has been shattered. I look at my post-kid body and feel as though I just can’t compare. I’m not sure how to get past this really. It has really shaken our marriage up. I’ve been praying on it a lot.

I tried so hard in regards to being physical last night and in the end I just couldn’t do it. I mean, I can kiss him, but anything more than that, I just can’t do. He got very frustrated with me, said I teased him and went up to bed. He apologized for his behavior this morning in a note. Said he feels awful for what he has done. I just can’t seem to get past this. It has hurt me so deeply..

I really need a lot of prayer on this. Prayer that God will give me a physical desire for my husband and that he would soften my heart towards him as well.

I am beyond..

pissed off right now. I want to take the damn computer and bash it in with a bat and then throw it out the f-ing window.

Sabrina.. if you’re reading this, please let me know what your email is..

I need to talk to you and I can’t get on AIM at all during the day..

Just pray for my sanity now girls, because I swear, I could kill someone right now…

And I know I should be “supportive” but quite frankly I can’t.

And I don’t feel like sharing any of it either..

I just want to cry………………………

Taking..

Brian out to lunch today.

I just really appreciate all he does.. He takes care of so much, even around the house, he does more than I.. And he understands when I don’t feel well, or just don’t have the energy to do anything. He takes everything in stride and he is trying to figure out how we could make it work about staying at home. Even thinking of taking on a part time job to make it happen. He takes such good care of Brianna. It is so sweet. He is just so caring.. He is a wonderful husband and I am so lucky to have him in my life.