Ready and willing..

I’ve been feeling lost. Empty. Disconnected from myself. I’ve wrapped so much of my life into what I think others want me to be, that I can’t separate myself from the lies I’ve told myself and believed.

That probably doesn’t make much sense at all.

I live in such fear of rejection, that I avoid it like the plague. Always have. I feel like as the days, weeks, months, years go by, I always will.

I need to put my foot down.

I’m ready and willing.

It’s not going to be easy.

I’m scared to death.

2 thoughts on “Ready and willing..”

  1. HUGS! Please call me to talk if you feel up to it. I don’t want you to have to feel alone in this, and you know that I am right there struggling with you on so many levels.
    I am always here for you and I hope you know that I accept you for who you are, no matter what.

    I have to admit that I have had some of that disconnect from myself lately too, and I tend to wallow inside myself and ignore it and as you and I both know, it doesn’t work, well at least not long term.

    I know that weekends are busy and hard for us to talk but I am here ANYTIME, and I will be calling and harassing you this week if you don’t call.

    Just know that you are not alone and I am always on your side and here.
    Love you!


    1. Thanks for being such a wonderful friend. I know I can always count on you! Seriously though, I am so done with the feelings of insecurity. It is so annoying! Ok, off to read your journal and comment, because you put big information in there! Like Anthony’s eviction date! Sweet, I’m so very excited!!!


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